vulnerable.

Susceptible to physical or emotional injury

i don't think that it had occured to me before. or i suppose that i'd not really given it much thought. that i've always avoided making myself vulnverable. that it makes me feel uncomfortable. more so then any potential benefits. par example last night i got very drunk, *smiles* to be fair i had a good night and told Lizzie how much i liked her friend and then i think i texted, no i did text her and thought that would be that and then i saw her outside and then her friend was there... but that part is hazy. *shrugs*
i did again last night. what was i thinking. rationally it makes no sense. i know that. but i can't seem to stop. because i need to, if only because i'm going home soon. i want to scream it out loud but i can't. of late sometimes it's all i can think of. the lines i can make.