it was Sawley's girlfriend, Jenn, *smiles* Chris' girlfriend is Jenn too, anyway, she was here today, and we get on and she apparently thinks a lot of me and invited me to the pub with her friends. was non-committal. but. *sighs* makes me feel empty inside. yes she's pretty and lovely etc etc. for all she may thinks it's nothing at all.

when Kittie was drunk on Saturday and she said what she said.

feel it building. feel like i'm drowning.
"drowning not waving"


feel the waters rise slowly, slowly. don't you know you're helping it rise. misjudged the tone. it rises. can feel the cold permeate me and take away my will.