it is only a exam.

i hate myself and i want to die.

it is only an exam.

i want to chain smoke 20 cigarettes.

it is only an exam

i want to go home and cut myself.

it is only an exam.

i don't know.

the cuts on my arms are raised. it feels like i've got lots of straight stinging nettle stings. i can't stop myself. i don't know if i want to, it doesn't achieve anything. but.