yes. i was feeling most down last few days. much. rationalising my own suicide down. i bounce between thinking i need to get some help and not. if people think i'm ok.... i don't know. got really caught up in her for a time. in a way i really shouldn't of. but that's just me. so easy to give but you'd never know sometimes. got far too drunk on saturday. stupidly so. but it just crept up on me and i did drink lots of water and so eased the hangover incredibly. thankfully.

Be nice to everyone, but you will only connect with the people you are meant to be connected with.

yeah she was kissing someone else. yes. well. *smiles* it sorted somethings out. and we did speak on the morn after, "we're ok".

everyone's ok.