i don't feel better. and in all honesty it's just annoying. see, i thought i was ok, but i really wasn't. caught up again, just there, in her. you know. it was nothing and i made it everything. friends who try and protect you. indeed. she just went on a date - he must be american - that's all. deary me. woke up this morning feeling profoundly silly. i let myself get caught up in it last night. but at the time it was all i could think about. i was one morose mother fucker. but there we go. i just need time, give me time. hahahahahaha. jackass.