i concur with what i said previously. don't know how i feel. maybe i am asking the wrong questions.

"I can't pretend
I need to defend
some part of me from you"

hmm. but you can't get something from nothing. obviously. things just don't work that way.

the sun is a star.

i am wearing a blue t-shirt.

when you die that is it.



sometimes i feel that i don't have any hope left. i don't make the effort required. i drag myself down because i don't think things will get better. i look at other people and i can't see me there. if it was painless...

pah.